One thing that I hate and love about myself is the fact that I care too deeply. I usually get taken advantage of in one way or another. People think I am just being nosy when I check on them. With some people I make there problems mine own. I stress over them and over think situations that I could have changed, things I could have said would have changed and out come. If I really love you I will go out of my way to "help" you with I usually either being thrown in my face or people taking advantage of my help.
Awhile ago I received a letter from the Diocese of Cleveland. I was so confused of why I was getting a letter. Someone who I used to be friends with decided that I would be a good person to have fill out a questionnaire about her and her ex-husband relationship so she can get an annulment. I was flabbergasted that after I was there for her through so much she decided that not to be friends with me because big daddy and her ex work together. We were very close and I took her pain and made it my own. I took their struggles in their relationship and then fought with my own husband about them. She took advantage of my kindness several times but I feel after 3 years of not talking to me she was out of her fucking mind thinking I would help her again! It was so stressful to flash back to something I thought I put in the past. Even after talking to my priest it was a hard no!
While I have moved on from that particular moment in my life. I still continue to want to help people who don't want help or then to turn around and throw my help in my face. I'm not quite sure why I do it. Is it my anxiety that makes me over think their situation or that I just care? I am too nice? So many times do I hear why do you care? Just Stay out of it? I mean to its just not in my nature to leave someone when they are hurting even when I get hurt in the long run. This is something I'm working on. I'm becoming a better me. Me without the stress of not only my demons but trying to look after their demons too. I'm still going to care just not hold it with me for too long.
My hope is that you as well can find a balance between caring for others but no taking their problems along for the ride!
Oh my I saw this quote and I absolulty love it. Its from an author named Sandra Kring. I now feel like I have to read her books.